am going to take baby steps in uploading all my photos that i haven. i know some will seem ages ago and even up till the first moment of 2009. but bear with me alright. just look at them and smile? i will even grant you to say: aiyo so long ago, seen them before alr. but posting is still posting. and this post will be somewhat certifying that i will post other stuff too right? yup, i am back people. guess normacy will become the right thing soon. taking some time though, so just help out? thanks:)ok.

we went back to school for homecoming on 2nd Jan. i am so sorry about forgetting about the cny celebration. kinda bummed that i forgot and did not go and am a huge idiot for not checking my phone the night before. so now i will make it a point to religiously check my phone. i will! will be heading back to school to collect some stuff, so anyone who wants to join me, please let me know(: really irritated that i forgot about the celeb. think that the whole not celebrating just made me kinda gloomy.sadness.
anyways. HOMECOMING 2009.

the school became really huge and the young ones are really lucky to have such a nice compound. hope that they are thankful. but the colours are indeed a bit odd. but somethings grow on people, mabe this will too. but it is weird to see the canteen stall holders in uniform and yellow for canteen? ugh. and the tiles give a toilet vibe.the favourite zheng xin yuan. remember to step on the grass. it is definitely the one thing that everyone missed and will remember.
and so there was a concert as per normal and then we went around taking photos.
i like how the school became so airy with many many open areas in the buildings themself. am extremely jealous of the performing arts block too. with the wooden platform and all, it is really nice.

yup. this is the performing arts block. i know it's really dark but it's really nice. and is it air conditioned??
4h people at the passageway outside the audi. the audi looks exactly the same. it is as if we did not leave at all.
and we headed to one of the many many open areas. i have no idea which, you will have to ask jinghui for that. he was like our own personal tour guide.we were all busy finding the school flags, for keepsake. but the school flags aren't really printed correctly, colour is a bit off and the badge is not centered. but am still glad to have one (:jumpshots! i think we do really good jump shots. everyone was jumping and up in the air. but gabriel looks weird though, too straight or something. and who puts their arms along their sides when jumping?
and we found another pond. more contemporary looking. if some wondered what happened to the pond at zheng xin yuan, the one with lots of ponds, here's the answer: it got filled. yup. i know it's sad but they did fill it up with sand. so the following is a new pond that i think they are trying to make up with, but there are currently no kois in them.



walking around made us tired. sign of aging. no idea why, but many of us found ourselves at the roof top tennis court. really nice place to hang when the weather is nice.


at the yellow canteen with mr. hia. think he taught maths to practically everyone.

that's all. the feeling of going back is kinda weird. like everything seems so familiar but you are no longer a student, so it makes it a little odd to be back in school. but it nice to see everyone again. how are you all doing? will see you all soon for results. nail bitting moment. take care everyone(:

really liked this photo. with random year 6, but it's still a nice feeling.

credits to tienleng for some of the photos. thanks(:

am sorry, to those who read this blog. i wonder who does. the pics have to wait. caused something really huge cropped up. something that made me realize that life is really more fragile than one believes and think so and that love can never be felt more strongly when one is losing something and that is the catch. then when you understand a part of love, you may i the en lose all the courage to ever fall or give yourself to it anymore.
the passing of my dear aunt juvena brought about many thoughts that i have never think. i am not as optimistic as the rest about her current situation and maybe that makes me a pathetic person. it even crossed my mind that i may not make it into the room to see her, but i did. i did not want to have any regrets. i would be realy happy and glad as all others will be in that same room if she comes around. but all i hope for now is for her to hold on and pull through tonight, at the very least let kor lubin see her, feel her warmth and hear th sound of her heart pumping. but she lets go if that is the direction that her fate and the voice from her faith brings her too. i hope that she will always know that she is loved and will be remembered for being a kind and sweet person. it is that unfair that such things tend to happen to those who are nice.
i am worried for my cousins. i truly am. seeing them so frail now makes it harder. it is worrying to me that people are lifting their hopes and dropping them down again. it would be so much more difficult to heal later on. i hate it that people keep repeating and asking what happened. it is not as if you can't engrave it deeper into their memories. how long would it take to heal? healing not in the sense of forgetting and trying to put aside, but really lettin it go, the hurt go and holding on to the parts of aunt ju that were beautiful and things that she should be remembered and loved for. in the end we should be proud and honoured that we were part of her although short but wonderful 46 years.
things will get better. definitely not to the state when she was around. but something that seemed like normal.
no worry of yours should be brought along. we will all be strong including imee,lucien and lubin. i hope that you will find peace and contentment wherever you head and thank you for being a wonderful, lovely and gracious aunt of mine. take care aunt juvena.

am back from the gracious land of italy.
currently am absolutely hating the hot weather and the fact that i am stuck in my dark room, stranded as my lamp decides to give up on me. on the other hand, it is indeed very much twilight-ish. smiles to myself. yes i confess, i am a huge huge huge huge twilight fan. am part of the twilight saga, not exactly the movie but the whole story, books are great. and i managed to snag the last two out of the whole 4 book series from italy! got my hands on the books which kino says are sold out world wide. so am pleased with myself. but no light = not possible to read. those who are as twilight crazy as i am. NO. not oogling at edward but the storyline and thoughts that run through, come share them with me. twilight fans must unite.

till then all. hope that you guys are still having fun with freedom.

been a month since i last posted.
been busy with work and since i am working, there is nothing much to upload and life is kinda boring due to the daily routine of going to work at 9 and ending at 6.
however past few weeks have been packed with christmas and new years and there are pics.
will load them soon, but am heading to italy in a couple of hours, so i guess those pics will be up with those of italy.
hope that your 2009 would be a blast. to all the lovely ppl in my batch, take this time to do things that you really like and do enjoy. it is not going to be easy for us to find other time when we can just relax and do whatever we like for 6 mths. so take care and have fun during this festive period(:
i know i will have tons! see you all when i get back. am off to do what the romans do. love, ailyn(: