am done packing for hall camp.
think i will be done packing for hall too, am just throwing everything into the bag now. will pack and make sure everything fits when i get back from camp.
will be gone for a week world, but will come back and update. there are so many photos.

while i was packing, i was thinking that this is it.
school is starting and for the first time, i think i'm prepared. i want school to come back. being a student, going for lects and tuts. using stationery.
when something truly starts, it means that some things have really ended. like being a student at dunman. guess new experiences at ntu will be build on the character that was shaped during dunman. so nothing is forgotten but missed.
it just feels very new to me. gone were the days when my parents fuss and prepare me for school. we are all on our own now. never doubt that they will be there to support me but it boils down to the effort that want to put in now, the things and values i want to hold on, living my life. i would really miss my parents and my sis and dell and my room and the east side and everything that are so familiar. luckily the girls are with me. these made me glad that i'm not leaving the country. will be there to send those who are leaving off. i promise. take pictures and all(:

it's about finding a balance and keeping what important close to us. so if you are important, there is no way you can be forgotten or missed out or left behingd. everyone should trust that and believe that you hold more importance in other's hearts. so even though i may be in the west, i'm still back during weekends, so eaterners, please have as many gathering as possible. it's the only way we can stay relevant to each other meetup. closeness based on attendance, although it may seem this way and when other things such as work starts to pile, it may seem as a burden. but i really enjoy and like going for all meetings, big or small. it feels nice, easy, effortless.

my girls are strong enough and i know them well enough. not everyone will be that way and it's a choice made by others. so what if there are many cases out there, higher occurrences do not make them ok or right. never blame on the things that are happening, blame on your own choices.

excited, prepared, looking forward, missing, living and loving, Ailyn.