i truly understand the urge or wanting to be apathetic.
i never thought i would ever choose to feel that way towards anything.
but this time round, i suppose that would be my only route.
a by default choice, somehow a third party came into place. but i think it was a hint, huge sign that confirmed my decision. thank you for helping even though you didn't know and no worries, you are safe.
being unfair? i think this time round i just have to be selfish. it is almost impossible to not put things into perspective especially after having my doubts. the choice of ignoring, just cost less harm to me and to those who cares about me. to my lovelies, i am absolutely fine. just have so much to share.
i'm so sorry. you might have won, but i know you have lost so much more. so much.