6:42 PM, Monday, November 5, 2007.

feeling lonely at times.
it seems that no one seriously cares about what i do or what i say or perhaps even my existence does not really matter.
it's been a while since i spoke to her.
and it is so not my fault this time round.
i want to be able to talk to her again.
no matter what, she is the closest person to me ever.
you can blame me from judging what she is doing.
i am a control freak.
isn't that something everyone knows?
so why can't she understand too?
if you read this, please come a look for me.
i will try too.
but you will have to reciprocate too.
will you?

need to find myself.
what am i going to do?
what do i really want?
doing something i like.
being happy.
living my life to the fullest.
making choices without any regret.
loving who and what i am.
when will this really happen?
will i stay true to what i wish?
or will i just succumb?