11:30 PM, Wednesday, December 9, 2009.

am moving to wordpress.
yeahness.
ailyntan.wordpress.com
see you over the other side(:

10:53 PM, Tuesday, December 8, 2009.

it's quite sad that i dont have a nice surname. not that i hate mine. maybe it's not not nice, more like unique. so that i can set a new blog with my name, cause apparantly,everyone's name is like boring ailyn which mean ailyn.blogspot.com will be take. rarrrhhhh.

gather gather gather.
i want to buy things.

9:39 PM, .

the dear exams ended on the 2nd. ah yes, they were so kind to end a day before my birthday. it's coming to a week since the last paper. have been having lots of birthday meals, a hue thanks to all who had made it a great one, H V Y LN YP and many many more. will update, when i get pictures (hint H) but i realized i did not take many. must get the habit of taking photos again. shall get the good cam from the uncle. hee(: finish the third season of fnl, will the fourth ever come out? and i realized, i am quite a lost child myself. well, being alone makes one think. have to start planning what i want to do for the rest of my hols, since it has started. should not waste precious time. will update this poor space. off to watching victoria secret's fashion show and gg. yes, gg is out.
till then(:

7:46 PM, Monday, November 23, 2009.

i cannot be in contact with the world now.
i just simply can't.
it is very difficult.
appearances are just appearances.
oh no.

12:15 PM, Saturday, November 21, 2009.

it never gets better.

12:36 PM, Thursday, October 29, 2009.

it's a gloom that everyone's feeling.
even i can escape it and i don't want to try and run for it.
given my speed, i will never be fast enough. ever.
just have to try so that i won't get sucked in.
3 weeks says roomie. will it be fast enough?
am not worried about the time. worried about having no time.
and even so, it's just not going to be enough
not good enough. not fast enough.
proven too many times.
satisfaction seems a long way from where i am.

3:57 PM, Saturday, October 24, 2009.

i have never been so afraid.

1:11 AM, .

since when do i feel that conversations are difficult.
to think that i would want to shun them.
it's disappointing.
i like being lost at times.
just going with the flow and believing somewhat things will go all right.
but i have to lose that luxury.
will i be even too afraid to just whack?

4:34 PM, Sunday, October 11, 2009.

i don't know.
i don't know anymore.
don't know what's right, don't know what's wrong.
no clue what is expected, no idea what i should do.
miss the days when there was an aim, where i knew where i stand as for me to move on.
this perhaps would be give me a good gauge, maybe not a good one, but at least it's clear.
there is still time, or i hope there is.
make the best out of it, cause i really cannot settle.
am not willing to.

9:31 AM, Saturday, October 10, 2009.

being at home only makes me want to sleep.
absolutely unhealthy for the looong list of things that i have to complete:
aa101 quiz
biz law assignment
database project
aa101 team project
biz law tut presentation

some one just kill me.

7:01 PM, Monday, October 5, 2009.

8:16 AM, .

9:33 PM, Wednesday, September 16, 2009.